Shattered, broken and dishearted he thought
He has left everything for something he still hasnt sought
A million thoughts crossed his mind
How can he be so blind
Confused and deluded, he pittied himself
Feeling like a helpless, useless, powerless elf
How can he be so naïve
Chasing something he knew, he would never achieve
And yet there he sat under the cloudy sky
Closing his eyes wondering about her, he sighed
And even after all this time and what he had been through
He has nothing left, but rue


Its a tragic story which I am about to write today

I am sitting here in front of your partially completed portrait

There is a lot I want to say, but much to my dismay

I don’t have the heart to say it all today

What I am writing about is how I got betrayed

By your gorgeous eyes and pretty blushing face

I am writing about all those gorgeous days

When life was good and between us we had short ways

But it all suddenly changed and now I am in this phase

Thinking about you and wishing you had stayed

Guess I am doing it again today

This is why I need to get back to your portrait


Kesy Lot Aye Ho..

Mere dil ke chokhat par, aj kesy lot aye ho

Dil to dukha gaye thy, ab kia leny aaye ho

Jin raaston ko chor kar main ab sanbhal paaya tha

Kia un raaston par muge lota deny aye ho

Woh jin yaadon ko bhool kar main muskurany laga tha

Kia un yadon ko phir se taza karny aye ho

Woh jin zakhmaun par marham laga kar main zindagi jeeny laga tha

Kia un zakhmaun pr namak chirhakny aye ho

Aj kuch hua hai jo tum lot aye ho

Yaqenan dil dukha kar phir akela chor jany aye ho

Already gone

Life was so good. Everything was in order. Two siblings and parents, it was all good for him. Fishing trips with his dad on weekends, ice-cream almost every night after dinner, early morning walks with his mother and whatnot, it was all in perfect shape.
He had never fell for any girl his whole life but then one day, during a wedding ceremony, he saw one girl, who had glorious eyes; deep as an ocean, beautiful smile and when she untied her hair it was like a brown waterfall. She was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen in his life. She gazed towards him and chuckled; in a cute way and before he could give her a smile she blushed and started looking away. She was shy, innocent, perfect in her imperfectness. It all started from that wedding and it kept on going. Rare meetings, late night texts and whatnot. It was all happening. He had never wished for anything in his life before but he was dying for her, he wanted her to not be just a part of his life but he wanted her to be his life.
Then one day, he woke up with a weird feeling. He hadn’t recieved any morning text from her, he got worried. He tried to contact her but he couldnt reach. He got terrified. What if something had happened to her? What would I do now? He thought. But, nothing had happened to her. She was safe but her parents, they had decided to marry her somewhere. He felt so helpless, he couldnt stop it even if he tried. He was in shambles. She was also terrified, all those dreams, it all fell apart. With in no time it was all gone. He asked her if she was ready to run with him and go away but she said she couldnt, she was too weak to do that. He couldnt imagine his life without her. He tied a rope with the fan and placed it around his neck, he stood on a chair and it all started coming back to him. All what they had thought, the kind of life they had wanted, the kind of life he had wished for, it all fell apart, he was helpless, he couldn’t do anything, he had never felt this much helpless before. It had all fallen apart, it was all gone, one moment she was there right infront of him, in his arms, he closed his eyes and when he opened them it was all gone, she wasn’t there. He was alone and the sky, it was getting dark. Everything he had wished for was going away from him and he couldn’t do anything. He opened his eyes, murmered something, got rid of the chair and there, he was gone. At just that moment a text was recieved on his phone and it was her text “I’m ready to leave my parents and run away with you” but…he was already gone.


I cant sleep and I am in despond
I have been waiting for you to respond
There’s darkness around and fear in my head
I am laying hopelessly on my bed
Right now I’m in a terrible state
Longing on about my fate
Thunderstorm is striking hard
Eveything is tumbling like a house of cards
Maybe its because I havent seen you in a while
And maybe you are what I need to feel alive


They are nothing
They make you believe
They give you hope
False hope
You think something good is coming
You wait for it
You get excited
You become anxious
Till you cant wait
And then suddenly
The bubble bursts
In one moment
Its all gone
Everything you got excited for
And you are left with nothing but


I used to comtemplate death every day but it all changed when I looked deeply into your glorious eyes because it was in those eyes; the hope, the light, the shine, enough to keep me going
And with every little drop of rain in the monsoon he wishes to go back in time and fix the mess he created
He still thinks of you when there’s a full moon and the ocean tides are raised wishing that you’ll come back and fix him
And while writing everyword for you he soaks the pen into the sea of memories because it is all he has left now
And when he looks at stars in the night he wonders whether you’d be staring at them thinking about him
And during the most awful nights he tries to pick up and join the parts of memories you left to recreate your presence
They say the darkest hour is just before dawn but dawn is nowhere to be found in the darkest hour he has been since your departure

A Tear

Its dark, he’s alone
And he misses you
He wants to cry
But his heart has become stiff
His eyes have gone dry
He wants to scream
But his voice has gone missing
He thinks
About heartbreak
About how he got betrayed
He misses you but at the same time
He’s angry at you
But he still loves you
He still wants to be with you
He’ll give up everything in a second to have you back
He is frightened
And you’re his only saviour
He may have grown up but he’s still the same
The same person who slept in your arms
In his childhood
The same person who cried on your shoulder
When he was sad
The same person who found peace in your kisses
When he was scared
He writes
he misses you more
And oh finally
He sheds a…

(I think I miss my mother)


Did you think about me when he was holding your hands?
Did you think about me when his arms were around you?
Did you think about me when he was pouring champagne for you?
Did you think about me  when he was staring in your eyes?
Did you think about me when he was whispering your ear?
Did you think about me when he was tying the necklace around your neck?
Did you ever just sit and think about us?
Do you even remember that I ever existed…?

Lost souls and arranged words