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Portrait

Its a tragic story which I am about to write today

I am sitting here in front of your partially completed portrait

There is a lot I want to say, but much to my dismay

I don’t have the heart to say it all today

What I am writing about is how I got betrayed

By your gorgeous eyes and pretty blushing face

I am writing about all those gorgeous days

When life was good and between us we had short ways

But it all suddenly changed and now I am in this phase

Thinking about you and wishing you had stayed

Guess I am doing it again today

This is why I need to get back to your portrait

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Already gone

Life was so good. Everything was in order. Two siblings and parents, it was all good for him. Fishing trips with his dad on weekends, ice-cream almost every night after dinner, early morning walks with his mother and whatnot, it was all in perfect shape.
He had never fell for any girl his whole life but then one day, during a wedding ceremony, he saw one girl, who had glorious eyes; deep as an ocean, beautiful smile and when she untied her hair it was like a brown waterfall. She was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen in his life. She gazed towards him and chuckled; in a cute way and before he could give her a smile she blushed and started looking away. She was shy, innocent, perfect in her imperfectness. It all started from that wedding and it kept on going. Rare meetings, late night texts and whatnot. It was all happening. He had never wished for anything in his life before but he was dying for her, he wanted her to not be just a part of his life but he wanted her to be his life.
Then one day, he woke up with a weird feeling. He hadn’t recieved any morning text from her, he got worried. He tried to contact her but he couldnt reach. He got terrified. What if something had happened to her? What would I do now? He thought. But, nothing had happened to her. She was safe but her parents, they had decided to marry her somewhere. He felt so helpless, he couldnt stop it even if he tried. He was in shambles. She was also terrified, all those dreams, it all fell apart. With in no time it was all gone. He asked her if she was ready to run with him and go away but she said she couldnt, she was too weak to do that. He couldnt imagine his life without her. He tied a rope with the fan and placed it around his neck, he stood on a chair and it all started coming back to him. All what they had thought, the kind of life they had wanted, the kind of life he had wished for, it all fell apart, he was helpless, he couldn’t do anything, he had never felt this much helpless before. It had all fallen apart, it was all gone, one moment she was there right infront of him, in his arms, he closed his eyes and when he opened them it was all gone, she wasn’t there. He was alone and the sky, it was getting dark. Everything he had wished for was going away from him and he couldn’t do anything. He opened his eyes, murmered something, got rid of the chair and there, he was gone. At just that moment a text was recieved on his phone and it was her text “I’m ready to leave my parents and run away with you” but…he was already gone.

Expectations

Expectations
They are nothing
They make you believe
They give you hope
False hope
You think something good is coming
You wait for it
You get excited
You become anxious
Till you cant wait
And then suddenly
The bubble bursts
In one moment
Its all gone
Everything you got excited for
Drains
And you are left with nothing but
Frustration…

Scraps

I used to comtemplate death every day but it all changed when I looked deeply into your glorious eyes because it was in those eyes; the hope, the light, the shine, enough to keep me going
And with every little drop of rain in the monsoon he wishes to go back in time and fix the mess he created
He still thinks of you when there’s a full moon and the ocean tides are raised wishing that you’ll come back and fix him
And while writing everyword for you he soaks the pen into the sea of memories because it is all he has left now
And when he looks at stars in the night he wonders whether you’d be staring at them thinking about him
And during the most awful nights he tries to pick up and join the parts of memories you left to recreate your presence
They say the darkest hour is just before dawn but dawn is nowhere to be found in the darkest hour he has been since your departure

Questions

Did you think about me when he was holding your hands?
Did you think about me when his arms were around you?
Did you think about me when he was pouring champagne for you?
Did you think about me  when he was staring in your eyes?
Did you think about me when he was whispering your ear?
Did you think about me when he was tying the necklace around your neck?
Did you ever just sit and think about us?
Do you even remember that I ever existed…?

Memories

Horrifying creepy thoughts in my head

Laying all alone on this bed

Disastrous terrifying memories surround

I’m here shaking my head around

The moments we had the memories we shared

But now I’m alone wandering here and there

Cant sleep and I’m losing my mind

Missing you on this cold December night

Don’t remember the time when I last heard your voice

But I’m sure it was the last time that I smiled

Quest

I am trying to figure out a sloution to this mystery you left me in

I am looking for a way to end this misery I am in

I am  looking for the answers to the questions I have

I am following the paths to take back what I lost

I am running away from the demons i have to the demons I want

I am standing here in the middle of the night screaming your name

And this quest of yours has made me insane